I’ve thought about this for a while now, and I think I’ve finally come to a conclusion that will benefit both of us. At first, I thought about all the things that I would change; places I’d go, things that I’d do, friends that I’d have, girls I’d pursue. Some of those thoughts led my mind to interesting places that maybe future us can tell us about one day, but I realized something about us in those moments: we did alright.
Mistakes were abundant, but so were the memories. You’ll love a lot, grow secluded, but suddenly burst out of your shell. You’ll come to new realizations, have both ideas that seem great and ones that truly are. You’ll fall. You’ll fail. You’ll get hurt. You’ll be scared. You’ll be scarred. But, through it all, you’ll be you, and that’s the best thing you could possibly do for yourself.
There are some secrets to life that I wish I could tell you, but it’s probably best that you find out for yourself. Keep doing what your doing, and never have doubts about the path you’ve chosen.
(Why did I write this?)
I know lots of people write to their past selves or make videos about things that they’d tell their past selves if they could. It struck me as amusing that so many people seemed to want to tell their past selves about something that would drastically alter their life.
I started thinking about this because I’m going through a divorce, getting out of the military soon, and struggling with what I’ll do in the future. I thought about everything that I’d change if I could, but as in the letter, I don’t think I’d really want to change anything.
I have a lot of good memories, and even though many of them are now with people that I no longer have contact with or no longer even like, that doesn’t change how I felt in the moment. The little pleasures of living in the present are some of the greatest that life has to offer, and despite anything that I’m currently going through, I’d do it all again if I could.